Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Current mood: anxious
Category: Life
The baby I'm in the progress of building in my mind has already been called bean, peanut and Attila. Today we came up with a new name I think this name will stick for the term. We are now calling my little peanut Attila the Bun. James and I came up with that name this afternoon on the way back from my doctors office in Brandon. I had my first ultrasound today, that might sound kind of early but I think it is because I have been going to a reproductive endocrinologist (a specialist.) Going into todays visit we were very excited to see what we might find out, we've been checking websites online trying to follow the progress we hope is being made. We think according to the dates we know that I am 6 weeks along the ultrasound should of given us a more solid time frame.
Now I am admittedly a little nervous and fearful for what the next few months may hold in store. When I go to these doctor visits I am looking for reassurances that everything is going along fine. Today I didn't really feel like I got the reassurances I was hoping for. The doctor and his staff are all very nice my saying this has nothing to do with them really, I don't know what I hoped to see on the ultrasound but I had hoped for something else I guess. The technician found evidence of the pregnancy no problem but was looking for some definition in the sac possibly even a sign of a heartbeat. She didn't see those things today it just looked like a dark spot. I don't know what to make of this exactly she did think she found the yolk sac inside the area, I take that as a good sign. They've scheduled me to come back in two weeks and two days, I can't wait it's like waiting for Christmas over and over again each and every doctors visit. I just want to know that the baby is in there and growing at a proper pace and doing fine.
I really like the nick name Attila the Bun for the baby it's a fierce nick name a fighter I mean really look up Attila the Hun who was also known as the "Scourge of God." http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Attila_the_Hun
If you think about what a baby has to go through to be born all that rapid growing and then the experience of being born admit it thats a pretty fierce way for us all to of started out. I could make up a mushy sweet nickname to call AtB for the remainder until we meet, and I'm sure I'll have plenty of mushy moments but today the nickname for AtB made me laugh and that's important sometimes.
We got our first pictures of AtB today here's one for you to check out, I can't wait for the next set.
See you later allig8tors.
Currently listening : Begin to Hope By Regina Spektor
